Allow me to take a moment to explain what you are about to engage and read. This is something that was in part inspired by Gary Vee. Over the last 18 months I have listened to him preach about documenting the journey and not faking exactly where you are. Then the idea hit me to add this section. 

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Yes, you are going to read my actual thoughts and feelings as I continue to push on the Hollywood Wall and deal with disappoint and rejection, in my quest to sign a multi-project production deal.

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Why? - Two reason. First, lets say 3 years from now or 5 years or 7 years and I finally get my break OR even better, I sign my multi-project production deal with a studio or streaming service, I will have publicly shown and officially on the record real info to aspiring Film Directors, Producers, Actors what all I have went through, and this can give them encouragement not to quit and see what others felt in the process.  

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How cool would it have been to read Jennifer Lawrence's battle or process before she was cast for Hunger Games? Or Henry Cavill before when he was working as a restaurant before he was cast as Superman.

 

Second, I believe this could be a great way to connect with a serious decision maker. Maybe in fantasy land - as you are a big wig and very powerful person on influence in Hollywood, you will remember some of the things I'm mentioning in this section and might actually give me a shot or a chance to test for a scene. 

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I will do my best to not censor myself - but I guess that can be good and bad. Either way - readers beware- because I will be very honest and direct.

 

 

 

March 25 - I happen to score 2 pitch meetings with serious decision makers. Very nervous but excited. Either the ideas are good OR they dont like them - either way I will find out soon. 

 

 

Feb. 25, 2019 - Last night was the first time in 4 years I watched an awards show and wasn't pissed off. I actually got out of the habit of seeing those cats on the red carpet and being pissed I was in mix or being interviewed or there. Last week, I thought about what Tony Robbins says to switch your thought process. I decided to watch the Oscars last night with the thought in my head that one day Ill be there. And I decided to take notes and review those notes today. I used last night to try to increase my understanding of film making and why this film OR that film was nominated. I don't think anyone as a clue as to how the winners are decided. I did notice a patter of several nominees were previously nominated before for other work.  The trades are reporting that Spike was pissed last night. I don't know how much of that I believe. He seemed pretty happy on social about winning at least 1 award.  I think seeing him win last night is a great example of not giving up. As pissed and upset as he has been through the years, last night he got the trophy. I cant help be think, what if he would have retired 2 years ago or 3 years ago. Last night would have never happened for him. Keep digging and pushing I guess. DH